how wet my feet get.
i fell asleep at 9pm
while i was still at work.
no one notices the water in my shoes.
one time i whispered, "i want to go home,"
while already lying in bed.
"but you are home," was the response.
i knew, but she didn't
know how sincere i was.
i want to cry so badly that i laugh.
i want to sleep so badly that i lie awake all night.
i strain my ears and try to hear
but the suburbs are quiet all the time.
and when i open my eyes in the morning,
i see walls and not a window of blue sky.